“I’ll forgive but I’ll never forget.”
I just read an article all about forgiveness, which is something I am struggling with right now. I keep thinking I am at the point of being over the indiscretion but then another wave of anger, disappointment, hurt, and betrayal wafts over me and I realize I am not even close.
Yeah, I am angry. I am hurt… unbelievably hurt. I feel betrayed, lied to and discarded. I want to scream and punch and kick and cry. And above everything else I am embarrassed. Especially when everyone says, “Yeah, doesn’t surprise me, I was wondering when it would happen.” Clearly, once again, I put myself in a ridiculously silly situation obvious to everyone, oblivious to me.
At any rate, according to the article, once the anger settles, I need to accept what has been done.
…Just accept it as a fact and don’t over analyze it. It happened. This will still be shocking at first, but in time, you will accept it as a fact that you can’t change.
Last night I decided getting out and meeting people is probably the best way to get past the anger. I am going to formulate a strategy and I am going to execute it with intensity.
“Time is limited, so I better wake up every morning fresh and know that I have just one chance to live this particular day right, and to string my days together into a life of action and purpose.”
Lance Armstrong (1971 – )
I am going to just do it. I am going to get past the anger and accept it. I am going to move on.