Some amazing things have been happening to me. Ha! I love how I wrote that. Things have been happening to me. As if they were just delivered to me unannounced and unrequested. Truth is, I have kicked and scratched and punched to get these things to happen to me.
Last week I was interviewed on a television news program. And I just got word that I have been confirmed as a guest on a national radio show.
I have tweeted and blogged and FBed and hired a publicist and made calls and wished and hoped, thought and prayed.
It was just a evenings ago, Big E put a Charles Bronson movie in the DVD and brought me a bowl of ice cream, when I thought, “I am deliciously happy.”
It seems odd to be happy. And even with all the wonderful things going on, I still feel like I am waiting for my life to begin. I suppose in my mind, I figure my life will begin when I don’t have to kick and scratch and punch. Maybe it’s the kicking, scratching, and punching that is life.
Today would have been my father’s 74th birthday. It would also have been my parent’s 50th wedding anniversary. I called Lisa this morning and I said, “If things had gone differently in April, can you imagine what we would be doing right now? Running around getting a party set up… or maybe flying somewhere?”
It was just a few days before Daddy died that Lisa and I started to talk about what we were going to do for their big 50. Party? Trip? Both?
What happened? I am trying to remember what we did on Friday. How is it that I had an awesome weekend and I can’t remember what I did on Friday? I think for dinner I made Trader Joe’s Mandarin Orange Chicken for Ernie and me. Oh yeah, and then we went up to my loft and listened to Rubber Soul on vinyl. Sprawled on the floor, staring at the ceiling, listening to the songs go by, one building upon another, made me realize how I miss the concept of the “album.” Although I think that Michelle, ma belle is misplaced.
Saturday I made some amazing headway on my second eBook. In the evening, Ernie and I went ROLLERSKATING! The rollerskating was for Ernie’s friend’s surprise birthday party. They rented a roller rink for two hours and we skated around and around and around.
I have to admit I was worried. I kept fearing that I would fall, break my arms and find myself in a very bad situation. As luck would have it, I laced up my skates and it all came back to me. I didn’t fall once. In fact I had a great time. Don’t know if I will be joining any roller derby teams but I would definitely go back if nothing more than for exercise.
After rollerskating, we went to the Trestle Inn in Philadelphia where we drank whiskey sours and watched 60′s inspired go go dancers. Now, I don’t want you to get the wrong impression! The Trestle Inn is under new management and the old, pregnant strippers, riddled with bullet scars have been replaced with a much classier variety of go go dancer.
The women doing the go go dancing were beyond fantastic. I couldn’t take my eyes off them! I was surprised that their tip jars were empty so I remedied the situation by throwing in a couple dollars. They seemed very appreciative and when I finally did decide to go home, the dancers waved to me as I left.
Sunday we went for a walk at Tyler State Park and then in the evening we went to the Iron Hill Brewery in Blue Bell. Ernie had a gift certificate from Christmas that he wanted to use. After dinner we watched Bullitt with Steve McQueen.
It dawned on me today that I have spent an inordinate amount of time fixating on what I want to accomplish this upcoming year and what I didn’t accomplish last year. Instead of feeling buoyed over the possibility of the upcoming year, I felt like a huge loser. Rather than wallow in feelings of crapitude, I decided to sit down and come up with my accomplishments from last year. What made me proud? What made me happy? What delighted me? And so here it is… my list of accomplishments.
Looking back on all the good things of 2011
I wrote and published a book!
I was chosen to speak at 3 different Chamber of Commerces and countless other organizations and associations
I was hired by a large organization to work with their executive team!
I worked with a Business Consultant who really helped me.
Work keeps coming my way without too much effort on my part. I love what I do.
One of the groups I spoke to gave me an Entertainment Coupon book as payment along with Fifty Trillion Dollars from the Federal Reserve Bank of Zimbabwe [click to continue…]
Dear Lord! I just went through the last 9 years of New Year’s Resolutions and I am SHOCKED… SHOCKED that it seems every year I make the EXACT same Resolutions!
It’s all about getting my life in order. Stop being so messy. Exercise more. Push away from the computer and live. Stop procrastinating. Travel more.
What’s wrong with me? Perhaps I am just convinced these are things that I need to do but I am simply uninterested in making them happen? In 2002 I made a resolution to find a man to marry. It’s 2012 and I AM STILL SINGLE! And I struggle to KEEP MY BEDROOM CLEAN!
Okay. This has been a wake up call for me. I need to start working on ME!
At New Year’s Eve dinner, Audra and I explained to Big E how every year I post my resolutions for the new year and post the result of last year’s resolutions. Audra giggled and said, “It’s pretty funny since 90% of them are failures!” Truth is, I spend most of my time listing them out [...]
What a year. What a freaking crazy year. Who would have thought that in 1 year, I would lose my father and find myself single again? Not me. It’s almost all good. I am glad I am single but I miss my dad so very much. Slowly, his absence is beginning to feel almost normal. [...]
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